Trust and Love

 

Featured image: Flowing River

Have you ever considered your moods, views, and insights as fleeting? Or do you think of them as engraved in blood, set in stone, never to change? I used to think of mine as carved in stone. But now—well—the way I think of history and time is changing. I think they are more transitory.

When we sense movement and change, what are we sensing? We sense ourselves changing, I believe—I certainly do. For me, when I feel anxiety, I know I am uncomfortable. Something is different, and my spirit tells me something just isn’t right. The sense of grace in me says something isn’t working.

My sense of grace is like a river flowing through me; it is like the wind caressing me. And when I don’t feel that, something is missing, something is changing. This feeling, for many years, has enabled me to live with a sense of spontaneity. Mind you, I need a foundation—I always have those rules engraved in my mind or heart—but I sincerely believe I am meant to move on, to create, and to live in the transitional, constantly changing movement. To live with this child within, to feel burdened by this child, and to teach this child to search, create, and move beyond what is—to explore and discover.

Lately, when I am burdened, I search. I explore. I look for the flowing river—the rippling sound of water moving across the cooling rocks. I take a deep breath, lie on my back, float with the river, and say yes—yes—to the rhythm until I can once again begin to trust and love myself. Until I can again begin to trust and love my internal guide and spirit—and go for it.

It is not easy, this path. Trust and love are so important.